Gay Love and Other Big Disasters by Dylan James

Author:Dylan James
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Deep Hearts YA
Published: 2022-12-15T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

Benjamin

My lungs are burning as I close in on my tenth lap of the running track at my old high school. My body is screaming at me to stop, but fifteen laps is the minimum I committed myself to. I push forward a little harder—I realize I’d slowed down a bit on the second half of lap twelve and if I would let that slowdown continue, I’ll be walking before I know it.

I just have to keep thinking of why I’m doing this. I need to stay in top shape for when we head back to university in late August and football picks up again. If I learned anything in first year university, it’s that university football is on a whole other level compared to high school. I thought I’d ride on my success in high school and settle into leading the university team. Boy, was I ever wrong. While I’m very good at my part on the team, so is everyone else, which results in me being rather average. Mediocre, perhaps.

I want to rise above mediocre for my second year on NYU’s team.

Realistically, I have no hope of reaching something like the NFL. My football career will end when I finish university. But that football career will lead to scholarships and opportunities that will make it possible to get my degree and launch into a real career after school is over.

And that’s what brought me to the track today.

Well, that and the weird stuff that Jordan’s been doing lately.

Running also lets me clear my head, think things through, get some clarity.

Before I know it, I’m closing in on lap thirteen. I pound the pavement harder as I launch into lap fourteen.

Something is clearly bothering Jordan and it frustrates me that he won’t tell me what it is. It has something to do with his parents, I’m sure of it. They were fighting, he was upset by it, and when we were spooning on my bed the other day, he started acting weird again.

And when we went to Jack’s Café for the drag show, it took him a while to calm down. He was just so…tense. And then when I thought things were finally gonna go good and I had him in the privacy of my car at the lookout point, he went all weird on me again.

He’s, like, hung up on sex or something. Or that’s part of whatever’s going on, at least.

I mean, I’d like sex sometime, but only when he’s ready. And if we have to wait a little longer, I’m happy to wait longer. My relationship with him—my love for him—is based on how much I want to spend time with him, how much I adore him, how much he makes me smile. It’s not based on sex. It never was.

As lap fourteen comes to an end, I put my all into the fifteenth lap. I swing my arms with power as I lengthen and quicken my stride.

I need to talk to Jordan. Need to

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